Why People need to stop asking god for everything.

I wondered why people would just sit on their asses and expect some higher power to bless them with a anything they ever wanted.
I am not talking about religion to be mean or spark some debate. IT just bothers me, you do nothing for yourself and you expect some god to bestow upon you that you haven't work for.

I am not so much into the christian religion, But I do believe of an higher power, I just watch as my mother would pray to god, about getting her a Better job and she is not applying for any jobs. what is the point of him helping you then?

I just don't understand it, you pray to god about losing weight but you can't see help yourself half way.. god isn't the type of daddy to hand you everything you want and expect you to do nothing. if you want his divine blessing, you are going to have to help yourself halfway or all the way to get his blessing.

I am not good at math, I didn't pray to god to help me pass the last little bit of my ged exam, because that's all I needed was to have it in my hands was the pass the hardest part of the math, I was scared but confident. I studied for months, quit my job to devote more time into. Because I am serious about my education.. I helped myself all the way without praying.

But god/universe/cosmic alignment seem to grant an unknown blessing, making my test a little bit longer for me so I could change my wrong answers to right.

Happiest day I ever went through, When I passed.

So I have a firm, FIRM belief that god grants blessings on those who actually work for it, instead of lazing about asking for a handout every time in prayer.

You got to help and Love yourself, is the true key to receiving a blessing from whatever power that is out there, it may not be god, it could be goddess, cosmic alignments, spirits.

God Doesnt like ugly, And especially doesn't like lazy.

Mass Effect 4 not having a name yet

Though rumours have been circulating that the next game in the franchise will have a subtitle with it, Bioware has confirmed that Mass Effect 4 doesn’t have an official name yet.

After rumours said that the next game – developed on Frostbite 3 and releasing for next gen consoles – would be called Mass Effect: Contact, Bioware Montreal studio director Yanick Roy stated on Twitter that, “WRT [With regard to] name speculations: the next Mass Effect doesn’t have a name yet, just a working title that we have used since day 1 of the project.”

And that working title is likely to not be the final name. So if the game has indeed been referred to as “Contact”, it doesn't necessarily mean it will be officially revealed under the same name.

Then again, maybe it could. But it’s not a common practice in the gaming industry.

As of now, Mass Effect 4 is slated to be revealed at E3 2014

Read more at http://gamingbolt.com/mass-effect-4-does-not-have-a-official-name-yet-bioware#E6VVj6HGMHqoh4JL.99

I seriously wished that Bioware, the company that slighted me so damn hard on Mass effect 3 ending would just call it.. SHEPARD'S CONTINUATION! *deep breath* I am cool..I am fine..*eye twitch*

But I excited for the game, I will even bear and grin it, even going as far to buy the next gen. yes, that's right I didn't want to buy the next gen, I always wait a year or two when the price is more down or cheaper. haha I am cheap!

But Why no Official Name yet? It seems like watchmojo was right about the Development Hell situation. But I digress..I have played the mass effect series over and over..Am I truly ready for something different. I feel like I should be happy about it being it a 4 but this game is sounding like a left field  from the Original..it kinda makes me wary and interested.

I am cautious about Mass Effect 4, I want it to be as good as it's predecessor, I want calibrations. I don't want the development Dept to get ahead of themselves and screw the beautiful potential  this game has, no dropping the ball. Bioware has to be on its p's and q's because the gamers are going to rip them a new one, if this game with all this damn hype be Bad. so bad that you would want to play Alien Colonial Marines. So Bad that they want to Pay two worlds again or Dark Souls without an armor or weapon.

So I am cautious, I am Excited for The New Dragon Age premiering in OCT neverless..very cautious.

The Beyonce Challege

I am not a huge fan of beyonce, But since I am a writer on this website called  www.valentchamber.com and the challenge is to write a story insipred off of beyonce's latest album, the one that apparently killed everyone and dropped the ball.

uh-huh, Hey I am not a hater..so Don't think it. *snaps fingers in z formation*

Well since my sister is a fan, I will listen to everyone of songs and find inspiration. I said it was going to be an easy album..I don't know.

While having to finish my 4th chapter on my original story: Anakira

fancy cover and everything, when it becomes an book. I will be very happy. but whenever it does this will be cover for it, this cover fits for the story because its kinda disturbing but it pulls you in to read more, Let's just say it ain't your childhood fairy tale either.

But I love writing it, because the story just plays off in my head, I can write it down so smoothly and without blockage. I haven't experienced any writer's block while writing. and thank you god for that. But I am so happy that I discovered writing as a medium. it makes me happy.

So I am excited for this beyonce challenge. I must do research.. ;)

Do You.

One of my favorite youtuber shameless maya, says "DO YOU BOO!"

I love that saying more than anything, because such a simple saying actually has a meaning in my life, I spent my whole not doing me. I never really had a social life and I am very awkward and I don't know how to things for myself. Its funny because I am almost 19 years old, I am so scared of doing things..I always lived under my parents, always asking them for opinions and to take me places.

I realized that I need to start living my life, easier said then done..I still am scared to live my life. I still scared to venture out, Because I want my parent's validation on everything I do. So it's tough for me. But hearing her say DO YOU BOO,.

Little By Little I am..I am doing youtube videos which has become an happy medium for depression and anxiety, I am writing stories and drawing more. There is so much I am doing now, for myself and for all those years I forgotten what i wanted for myself.

now I as spread my wings little by little, I am learning to love more and more and I feel amazing with my newfound freedom and happiness.

I am not saying that I am perfect, but I feel like with one step at a time, that I achieve What I want to do and Learn to feel better about spreading my wings openly and flying! :)

My Natural Hair Journey :)

My Big Chop.

I have been natural almost 4 years, I big chopped last year early august, if you do not know what a big chop is, its when a girl cuts off all her chemically treated hair, so that it what i did..cut it all off and I didn't regret a thing, when I stepped out of the salon..I expected something. laughing at me, rude remarks.. I did not get that. it was odd and refreshing..I always had short hair, I never knew how liberating it could be to not have to hide behind my relaxed hair. I did get stares, I live in a very rural area where most women wear weaves or hair is very relaxed. SO people automatically assumed I was sick, crazy or go5t67ing lesbian haha.. -.-

BUT i embraced it and it was so much fun watching my hair grow little by little.. :)
So I love the freedom and confidence I gained from being natural instead of the lack of  overall self esteem I had when my hair was relaxed and constantly wearing weaves to be like all the other girls, so I would not be bullied..

Now I don't care what anyone says, I fully embrace my natural side. I would say that's pretty good growth length

me now :)                                                                                            big chop back then :D